Jan 24, 2009

Sleepless...

It's been about three weeks since I've been able to go to sleep and STAY asleep. Oh, how I want to sleep! I wake up at the slightest movement of myself or spouse, or the heater turning on, or simply my own thoughts buzzing on and on! It's not so much the "my belly is so fat with baby I can't get comfortable" type of insomnia, it's more of "my mind won't shut up, or shut off!" I figured since I had so much on my mind I'd blog and put down on "paper" what's on my mind...

My husband has one more shot at improving his DAT score for dental school admissions. Does he take the $1,600 DAT prep course (one class)? Everyone keeps saying, "Do all that you can!" Okay?! If it doesn't work out are they going to fork over the thousands we spent "doing all we could" in student loans because now he's not going to be able to get a job to pay back the debt of "doing all we could?" Or do we credit card it, or do I go back to work and shove Coleman in daycare, aside from pawning our possessions, just to "do all that we can?!" His scores right now are pretty competitive, but we heard this year (for some odd reason) was unusually competitive at OU, so as of yet, all the schools he applied to have rejected him.

How much baby weight am I going to gain? How will the rest of this pregnancy compared to my first?

How many times is my buddy going to crawl out of bed and come wake me up so I can help put him back to bed and snuggle with him for a while. I think the big-boy bed is a little intimidating. On average the past week he has woke me up 3 times per night (yes I'm counting). And I can bank on the fact that one of those hours will be 6am, his before 18 month arising time, that has now come back to haunt me. If I actually fall asleep with him I can get another hour or two out of him before my day really starts. I seriously think anything before 8am is an unrighteous hour!

Ants! How do I get rid of those darned ants that show up in little groups in my CLEAN and TIDY house?! ARGH! I spray lethal poison, that doesn't work. I use vinegar spray, that doesn't work (even thought every natural remedy for getting rid of pests will swear by it). I clean, and sweep, mop and vacuum, that doesn't work. They are so persistent! It's like...I open one cupboard to find it ant free, only to find later in my morning 4 or 5 little visitors in my bathtub! WHAT!? You aint gettin no bath! Any thoughts on these southern style pests!? I've never had a problem with them until last semester when we got several new neighbors. I think they might be the culprits! In an apartment, if your walls touch and you have a messy neighbor, most likely, you will get pests! Ew, my skin is crawling!

Why is it when I lay down at night I feel my body aches SO MUCH MORE than during the day. It's like my body is decompressing, but hurting in the process. You know that feeling? I finally get comfortable and every little ache begins to release itself, until I stay up thinking about it or toss and turn until completely exhausted. Well, I'm not letting it win tonight. I'm just going to completely ignore those aches and stay up blogging! Who knows what's in store once I do decide to try and sleep again.

Am I going to have to teach Relief Society, again, on Sunday?

What pictures am I going to have fun with next on my PICASA program? I was laying in bed with my eyes closed, trying to sleep of course, but I was picturing all the cool things I could do with some early baby pics of Coleman. I love that program! I was making an internal list of all the pics I have to revisit on PICASA.

WOW, so far, not a visit from the buddy, which means maybe tonight I'll be able to get at least 3 hours in before he awakes! Now that it's three in the morning, I'll attempt to put my mind at rest!

5 comments:

Jackson's FARM'N family said...

WOW, I thought I had it bad trying to sleep at night! Maybe its something that runs in the family but you shomhow got it bad!!! Im so sorry. I turned on your blogg to have some music to listin to and so I sat and read a bit. YOu know If you need a bit of side money and some time out of the house where Colebuddy can come with you then call the police and see if they need a sub crossing gaurd. Its way fun and only takes a small amount of time! Try it and see. Love ya!

Mandy said...

I loved reading this post!
I hate those night s when my mind races and when I finally get to sleep, Zac comes to my side of the bed and whispers "mom!" And they are on the same page...2-3 times a night!
What can you do fun on Picasa. I have the 3rd version, but haven't messed with it much. Have you played with smilebox or shutterfly, those are free and pretty cool too.
No you shouldn't put Coleman in daycare. You won't make enough to cover the expense and cover the worry, besides you have another on the way. Things will work out. You'll look back one day and maybe understand why things had to suck for a bit while you wondered what would happen next.
Anyway, I am no help on the ants. Good luck with that. Knock on the neighbors door and ask if they have the problem too and ask them what has worked for them. See if they care that they have brought the pests in. haha. JK.
Love ya! hang in there. I will be thinking of you next time I struggle to get comfortable with a pillow between my legs, finally dose off to a weird dream, then Zac wakes me.

Cherice said...

I have no idea what it will be like to wake up a million time and feel allthose aches and pains. I'm sure i would get so frustrated! Hope tonight you will get a consecutive 4 hrs sleep! (at least)

Taylor made said...

So my suggestion for the ant situation is to get of those ant repeller things you plug into your wall. it makes a clicking sound every 30 sec or so. We have a couple of them and they have helped (in my opinion) the noise at first can be a tad annoying but sooner than later you tend to not hear it. sorry to hear about all sleepless nights. maybe you will get so exhuasted your own thoughts won't keep you awake.

Sara Hadlow said...

I'm having the same problem. Even if I find two hours where Kate is napping my stupid brain won't shut off so I can sleep.

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